You guys. You all. Oh, my friends.
This is a spur of the moment post.
I can't do this, what I've been doing. Or I guess I just don't want to. I don't really want to write everything I write where nobody can read it unless they have a password. I have gone back through archives, and one of the things about this blog (or online journal, in its earlier incarnation) that's been a huge source of pride for me has been the way that strangers/new readers have found their way to a particular entry that has touched them, helped them, made them feel better or stronger or more understood.
I don't know how this is going to go. After 11 years of writing online, the only really consistent thing about my site has been that the frequency of my posting is sporadic, with repeated pledges to post more often followed by lots of posts and then weeks or even months of silence. So I don't know what I'm doing, but I do know that I want at least some of my writing to stay public.
I'm Jessamyn. I'm 41 years old, and I don't know what I'm going to do with the rest of my life when it comes to career or much of anything else, really. I do know that I'm going to do the best job I can raising my daughters (with their father, of course). I do know that I want to be open: to new experiences, to changes in future plans, to new thoughts and ideas, to new music, to other people. I want to be as kind as I can be without getting taken advantage of. I want to make time for family & friends. I want to set some goals and work toward them. I want to make enough money to save a little, travel a little, splurge a little. I want to take good care (better care) of my body. I want to read books regularly, take photos almost daily, write often, cook a new dish routinely.
I'll be back.